Sick

It's some of the bad days in my life.. Without notice, I get sick.. Sick of what I also dunno.. It all start by a cough, then it turned into flu, and then fever. This is sucks!

Oh my.. I should be "ge boh" like that, if I don't ask those questions, maybe I won't fall sick.. Damn, now only I realized it's been a trap.. Gerrhhh!

BROTHER, I HATE YOU. AND DUN EVER SAY THAT TOPIC IN FRONT OF ME ANYMORE! ESPECIALLY A MONTH (DAY) LIKE NOW!

Ahhh~~ When only my illness will cure~ I miss my activeness and all those curry and rendangs~

Sob~ Sob~

Mood :

Wanna eat all the thing I like~ Illness go away~!

Re-Start (After Resting 1 Week)

So, here I am.. Finally, my happy relaxing times (days) had passed away. So, that mean, I'll start working starting Monday.

Had some great relaxing time during these few days. Although what am I doing was just sitting in front of the laptop and finishing my chapter 4. So, there is it, my chapter 4 really did finish the final touch-up. At last~

So, after having a great weekends with my love 1, and some full body massage (actually is bone adjusting massage), I'm recharged and ready for the coming hard works. Ush~!!

Was wanting to share more on what I had done on this whole week, but it doesn't seem that I have the mood to talk about it, because I really did act like wasting my precious time during this week. Cheh~ What you expect me to do as my planning for the moment is enjoy freedom?

But say the truth, I really did have some good rest during this free weeks. At least, I no need to bother what other may say, no need to think bout others, but just to be myself, and to live my days. I'm glad for the new company for allowing me to rest for so long before working for them. Appreciated! So, will try my best to help them back in returns.

Let my passion burn again! And I pay back with my fullest!

Mood :

Re-Starting of working mode.

Resting day 1

Ok. Resigned. NOw really is enjoying my holiday. But not for a long time, just few days.

Just like that, 1 day already passed. And I really bored till nothing to do. Maybe working for those years, already knocked away my hobbies and interest. Still, I'm doing something I had to do although I not much feel like doing -- continue typing / writing my story, that progression is slower than snail walking.

AHHHH~!! Stress when the idea appear in mind but can't find the suitable words or sentences to key it out as a story. Erk~!!

After this delay and delayed chapter, next work is to translate a chapter (of another book) from english to chinese. This is my 1st text work (test), wish me luck!!

Mood :

Need few cups of hot & cold coffee, and the unlimited supply of music~

Countdown : 1 day

OK.. Today is the last day, I though I'll be uneasy to leave this office. But I get it wrong, I feel so relaxed. Dunno why and I dunno how i drop down the feeling.

1 thing to be remember, I'm now no more related to the "battlefield". Haha! A great thing to celebrate~ At least I can really give myself a break after this.

When you say it's nothing to be worried about, in a sudden, I think back the time I've been spending in this company. Starting a small and unknown store keeper, until the purchasing executive that always being chased by others workers.. LOL

Ya.. Now is a time with perfect silent, no other sound beside the office except the keyboard hitting and the mouse punching sound. This situation make me think of 1 song : When You Say Nothing At All~

Better don't say anything, especially the word -- Goodbye. This will drag me down to the emotion. But who care about it~ Today Is My Last Day~ Pheee~~~ (mind flying in the sky)

Mood :

Uneasy, but can't wait to spread the wings, and fly away~

Countdown : 2 days

Here, another day passed. I'm still blogging in my office as usual. Don't say I didn't do my work, I done it before I do my own stuff like what I doing now -- blogging.

Just wan to share my feeling, it's still as hard as the starting of the week when I know I'll be leaving soon. I know it's my decision to go, leave here, but dunno why, this uneasy feeling still bothering me. Yeah, I know it will be gone soon. So, I was keeping myself out of the "business" in the office. I won't bother what they had been doing all the time, even just online-ing. I need to be a stranger for all this if I don't wan that feeling pulling me down. Yeah, I'll be alright, before you noticed.

So, let's wait for it. Still got 1 more day. 1 more day to be a perfect stranger inside my office. It's hard to say about the feeling though. Hope the people after this take care of this department, and don't let it down so easily, as they are less experienced in handling those "demon in human pack".

I'll pray for you guys. Just hang on, and remember that, this is yours department, not your department, so, be it, take the teamwork spirit out! Then there is nothing to be afraid of!

All the best, pals.

Wishes :

Wanna have a nice rest after exercising. Been lazy for a weeks due to emotional distraction. X.X

Countdown : 3 days

This is the 3rd day. 3 days before my resignation. Kinda hard to express what's the feeling that bothering me, in my head right now.

I feel free, and I can smell the sense of freedom around me, just like running on a big empty grassland.. Feel free to do anything I wished for so long since I ever start working in the society, at the early age of 17 till now. Wanna be free, wanna take a good nice rest, before I'm assigned to another place for survival.

It's a great feeling of being so free.. Free until like being ignored, not been cared by anyone..

Underneath the freedom that I dream, I feel unsafe, empty, unwanted..

I promised myself and my she, that I won't be emotional, nor too soft-hearted, but when it come to this kind of situation, I cant hold myself. Not to worry as I wont do anything harmful, maybe just be emo for couples of days. I been wondering, "is all the human like this? have to lose the things 1st before they starting to appreciate it?" From what I experienced in those years, I can say that : "Ya, that's human."

Never mind, it wont make me change my decision as it's already the final. Just hoping what I did now is what I needed. Ya. I need a place to work, in the same time, a place that is free from "mind pollution" and let me feel that I'm not working but instead I'm working.

Still the same words :

Freedom and random is what I wishing for~

The Final

Yeah.. This is the final week. Things will getting more and more far away from me as I'll step on another path of my life. Life is nothing much, but just a drama waiting to be played until the end.

Life is full of emotions, truth & lies, love & hate. Nothing gonna change the rules of life being like this. This is life, our life.

Being the newer generation of the world aren't a bad thing as we accepted to be more modern, but it's aren't a good thing though as we been forgetting what our mission is, but we leading to destruction.

Life is Hard, yes it is. But when you think your road getting tougher, is because you got that something that the Highest afraid, so He trying to give you tests.

Ya. To believe, with believe.

Waiting

Finally, it's another month. Many things are pending, waiting me to finish them. But I doesn't feel like I'll settle all of it. Maybe you'll wonder why, but the reason is simple as abc -- LAZY.

Haha.. It's my style of working maybe, I'll delay the work, but will try to get it done. Will late, but won't no do.

Possible that I'm a kind of person that won't rush for anything, but I did have the things I wish to rushing for. I can't understand, but I still being like that.

Maybe, I wont decide unless I knew what will happen, so, I'll wait, wait till a time or moment that I can fully predict what will happen only I'll get moving. It's not a good way of being an individual as in the fast and cruel world, yes I know, and I'd face all those creepy peoples.

But it wont be a matter, I'm still breathing, talking, laughing, in-loving, then that's all I want.

So, I'll be waiting, waiting for the right time.

Freedom~