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慢慢的，我走了二十年。回想起我的童年，出现在我印象中的是风筝、空旷无人的沙地、脚踏车、数码暴龙机、还有那拼命追人的恶犬。

我喜欢风筝。看见它慢慢的飞起，会让我不住想像，我在飞～ 看见它，我梦想我的心也在空中翱翔～看那看那，看那“红色蜻蜓”飞在蓝色天空～哈哈^^

空旷无人的沙地啊～怀念啊。曾几何时，我家附近有一处开发着的沙地，（现在已经发展成为工厂了）。我们几个小鬼头经常结伴去那里“游山玩‘沙’”。还记得那时有着数座沙、石山。我们最喜欢玩角色扮演，幻想自己是爬山者，千辛万苦攀上最高峰，然后“一失足成千古恨”，一滑而下。刺激啊～ 但贪玩的后果是，灰头土脸的满身沙。哈哈^^结果呢？回家被父母骂咯。XD

Yeah.. Time really gone fast without our notice. For what we had experienced it, it's the memories to cherish. For those who we forgotten, they will still within, until the day, we met again.

When time rushed me to walk faster and further in my way of life, somehow, the memories of childhood, will flashed within my mind. Ya, I remember all the things that happened when I'm still a kid. What I remember the most -- lying on the soft sand, staring at the cloudy blue sky, with my best friends beside, after climbing up to the top of the sand mountain. It's peaceful. It's freedom that we wishing for after being tied to studies, assignments (not me), works, money, stress, love, and many more.

When we no longer have it, we find another way of freedom. I dunno where is yours, but I found my in the music. I admit that I'm not good in singing, but I enjoyed listening to music.. It's the peaceful world I can ever find.. Thanks for my someone also. She lead my way, and make it brighter. Thanks everyones^^

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曾几何时，我有过一段疯狂的欢乐时光，有过一颗平静好玩的童心。是什么时候，我把这两样东西，很重要的东西给遗忘了呢？是什么地方，我把它们遗弃了呢？

工作的担子在我的肩上不动声色地印下伤痕，爱情的轰烈看似渐渐被我遗忘了。我的生活开始变得不由自主，我的思绪缓缓地被侵蚀，只剩下黑暗。是什么？是什么挽留着我的感官？是什么让我在黑暗的命运路途中挣扎求存？是你吗？是的。是你。还有你。还有你们。

仔细想想，是什么时候我的部落格开始被涂上死亡的尘灰色，是什么时候黑暗也开始聚集在我的身边呢？被遗忘了。我的回忆也已经被我所遗忘了。开心的，在我脑海里；痛心的，在我脑海里；可惜的，在我脑海里；被遗忘，在记忆里。

或许，我的世界，我的真实是我的反面吧。记得有一天，我做了一个梦：
这里是迷宫。各式各样，上下左右都是楼梯，每一个楼梯的尽头都有一扇门。每一扇门的后面，都通向各个不同的记忆里；而有一些门则是回到梦的起点--迷宫。每一扇门都试了，每一种道路都走过了，剩下一扇被锁链封锁的破旧木门。挣脱了生锈的锁链，撬开损坏的木门。这是一间很小的密室。黑暗的角落，有着一个消瘦的小男孩。没有表情，但脸上流着殷红的眼泪。然后，他望向我，对我说，不要回来，忘了这里。而后，我醒了。

我，曾经怀疑过我有精神分裂症。

或许吧。但，我还是正常的。不要害怕，不要远离我。我没有可以伤害任何人的爪牙。

我会安静的等。安静地等待。一切都很安静。就像我梦境中，楼梯尽头的小密室里一样。

Down.Down.Down

Yeah.. Finally got my name printed on the name card~ And I've my own name card dy~ HOHO~ PURCHASING EXCECUTIVE~ Wuahaha~

But I don't really happy like what I'm Typing as you can see it from my title. Been promoted and get a better pay sure is a great thing to b celebrate, I supppose, but dunno why, this can't cheer me up much. Dunno what I'm thinking? Either do I. I did imagine when would I feel if I had my own position in the company and can proudly give peoples my name card, I would be very happy and proud. But it turns another way round when it become true.

I hate to say this, but I'm really not a good person to give orders and making decision. And even more, I can say I'm not a good worker as I don't like to work following orders. I wanna be free!!

Haih.. Panda's right. I have to plan my life. If really wanna study now, will be late dy mah? I think the answer is maybe. But life's so long, who can tell when is late? As long as you got the heart to do whatever you dream, and you got the strength to achieve it, nothing is late or impossible. Or how about another works that's free but pay less? Not worth? Maybe. But depends what and how you think. So, from here, you can see what I mean by I'm not a good decision maker lo. I actually dunno what I want. Pif..

But somebody, I mean my close friends, sure will knock my head when I say I dunno what I want. Why? They say, I'm not dunno what I want, is I want something, I'll think too much before I making a decision, that make me struggling until the end of the selection. I think it back again and again. Maybe they are right. I did think and consider many things before I making 1 decision. I do think that I'm a coward as I scare if I make 1 decision and that decison cause any trouble, I won't feel happy. That's why I seldom make decison. That's why I say myself a coward.

Lack of confidient really is my biggest weakness.. HELP~~