Been awhile that I haven update my blog. So, here, I just simply write down what I had gone through for these days.
Jobs on hand getting better as experiences gained by learning from anybody, even from their scolding. Side works, on the other hands, didn't seem to get as well as my jobs. Many i'm not "hungry" enough to get into the passion of doing it? Possible, I might say.
Inspirations. Kinda losing himself from my sight or senses since last month. Been in the empty mode for couples of time. Not a great stage if you ask me. It's make people lazy and crazy. Perhaps, not he playing hide and seek with me, but is me that keep him away from my area. For what reasons? Maybe I'm bored to facing it? Nah, just a joke. What on my mind, for joking like this? No idea, same to me. Just trying to focus on the jobs for the mean time. But not for long, I think.
Relation(s)? With family is getting better, but it's more suffering. My sis married. It's not a bad thing, but it's a wonderful thing. But what i felt is : Loneliness. Ya.. Sure will miss my sister, although she's not far away from where I living right now. just that the feeling is no longer the same, as she already other's family member. What to do, she can't take care of me and family for life. I knew that. For relationship, it's a complicated thing right now. Hard to tell. Just due to business of both sides, the communication seem to be reduced. But hopefully the feeling won't be cut down. It won't, I would say. Nothing much, just let it like this as we all need our own time and space to complete our goals. For friendship, kinda not easy. Hard to tell when your BFF is no longer nearby. Although that is not my only friend, but it still make me feel lonely for some times sometime. Nothing to be worried. It will just be fine, that's what i tell myself everyday.
So, I think this is all I wanna share. After i wrote this, I feel somehow relieved. Let me take a rest, then I'll rush again~!! Go Go Go~!!
Mood :
Swaying like a swinging swing. Many thing to do and try yet time is not enough for me to do all. It's not a reason, but it's complicated for me. Cheer~!!
