Attacked..

Maybe this is not a nice work after all. Really, I didn't mean to harm anybody, but maybe what I did does hurt anybody without noticed by myself. But if you feel that I didn't respect you, you can just tell me nicely, and I would be polite to you using the attitude that you want me to show.



What for stabbing me back in front of the boss(es)? Plus somemore to boss(es) that's no longer working in this comapny leh? Suan la.. Maybe he act as a senior (very old and experince that kind ), he wanna show us ( juniors ) what he is capable of, and as to proven his values out of some many competatives that have similar skills like he did, that's why he keep saying " I had work as a foreman for XX years, even in this company also I worked for 10++ years, you want to beat me? Train for few years 1st lah! "

Ok, I admit that he can do works, but if you can't manage to handle so many of it, why don't just say NO to the company? What for telling them is us didn't buy you the things you want and let the boss chop us? I also admit that he ( sometimes ) is a good teacher and also a good man to deal with, but when he do those kind of things, I will somehow think o, " is the person I admire and willing to learn from is some1 like this a? "

After all, he is the senior, or can be say, as a existance that cannot be denied, he had his values and power, but for some of us, he is the present of disaster.. Wish I could deal better with him, although I don't like him or how he talks nor works, but I appreciate the lessons and " lessons " he teached me and I'm glad that he somehow willing to teach me.

Thank you for the lesson ( " lessons " ) of life and work.

雨落

走过了数天的酷旱，天公好像可怜地上的众生似的，怜悯的落下甘露。

啊～雨啊～

下雨了，闷热的风升华了；冷冽的风缓缓的与清澈的雨露跳着快乐的舞步。
众生隔着门窗欣赏着愉悦的华尔兹。
迎着透心的雨，开怀吧。随着拂面的风，欢腾吧。

雨，洗涤尘埃，
雨，沉淀心灵。

稀里哗啦，快乐的歌唱，
轰隆恭隆，忘我的哼唱。

雨时，淅淅滴滴，期待雨后的天晴；
雨后，依依唉唉，想念雨时的悲欢。

当面对绝望时，要展望眼前，或许希望就在人间。
或许流泪，会使你更加坚强。

Life have to go on

No matter what happen, or will happen, how boring the life would be, we have to move forward. No matter how hard the path we walking on, we still have to move forward.

Ahh.. How boring is my life now. How hard I try to moving on this path of life.

But thanks to someone special, she did cheer me up, and gave me the strength to moving and moving on the path of life, not alone.

Thanks for encouragement. Thanks.

有心难行

有些事情，想说但是就是说不出口。
有些事情，想做但是就是做不出来。

有很多东西，不想去做，但却被现实所逼而不得不做。
可也有很多东西，明知不该做，有人却往往心甘情愿的去做。

何苦，何唉？

在别人的眼中，有些事情可能不值得一提，但如果某人做的开心，问心无愧，那么过程如何辛苦，他也不会太在意了。但可惜，有些东西我没有办法能做的向他们那么豁达，看得那么透彻，所以我还不能认同他的所作所为。或许，我明白他的心情和想法，但我拒绝接受他做这一切的理由，且怀疑他的决心。至少，我对他的为人多少还有一点保留。

而这一丁点的保留，使我无法相信他。

何苦，何唉？

随着离别的日子将近，这一份怀疑，可以释怀吗？
唉～艰难的日子，正一步一步的逼近啊。

Moving Hard.. Maybe a stop?

Time passed fast, day after days, yet the time almost there.. Time for both seniors left this company 1 by 1, 1st the malay senior (who I proud for her great work here), then the 2nd, the 1 who teached me alot of "his ways" of doing work and experiences. I appreciate all they had teach me, but i also hate (or dislike) whatever they put onto / into me, which make me not like me..

But what else I can say if the bosses also think getting both of them working at another company is nothing? "Just let it be whatever they wanted it to be." This what my heart said to me whenever I start to think bout the problems may occured after this.. Nothing I can do as this matter already confirmed without further discussions..

Before left, should you guys left me or inform me whatever project you still got in hands? Haih.. Actually, do I really care whatever they doing or not doing? Tell the truth, I dun care (maybe). I started with my own, getting helps from others, learning from others, really thanks for those ppl who help me withstand those obstacles in front of me by now, including those who I dun like, is they I should thanks, because, without them, I wont be me today.

Talking bout facing obstacles, I had faced some of it just within this few days. It let me learned that, nobody will be nice to you forever, and they never will do so to you. Whole world is talking bout own profits before applying others issues of other peoples, even a teacher that teached you many things. With a nice wrapping named "gift" or "challenge", they will slam some problems to you, force you to find a solution then when you starting to solve the problems, and meet the guys, they gave me a smile(s), and telling me, "as a purchaser, you have to be tough to fight with all those hard-to-deal situations or suppliers, dun try to "eat" your mistake, you suppose to deal with them with soft-hard or soft-soft methods to settle the probs." I appreciated, the "works" he had done, but I dun accept his ways of showing me this facts. I knew I should learn from this lesson, but I cant forgive the way he observe how I solved the problems, and dun tell me bout the history of you guys that you alone can handle the whole department as it started as a small unit and now already grown to a company holding ISO(almost).

But 1 things for sure, I had learned alot, more than anything that I ever seen in this life(for now). I wish I can thanks you guys of anyway I can, but I'm not done with the anger in my heart, sorry to say that.

I dun think that this will be my final job, and yet I'm not joking bout this. When everything's ready, I'll leave here once and for all.. Maybe a new job, maybe furthering my study of arts and design, or maybe become a tattoo artist was not a bad idea after all(the 1 who design tattoo).

Road is getting tough when I moving further, looking back to the scars on my soul, somehow I wish to have a stop and rest. Stop, mean end of something; and that something maybe will hold other things, will I dun bother what will happen when I stopped? I will.. But at least is my decision, not aimlessly following others' order(s).

At least, I proud to be in my ways.
Miss the wind-blowing days.. Miss the chit-chatting days.. Miss the warm-hearted peoples that 1st appeared in my journey of work..

Need a rest, making a stop.. Making a stop that seem difficult..